Offer of Trust

Early on in my process of recovery, I discovered I needed to learn how to trust in some higher power, in something greater than myself. That trust was easy initially, as I had just read the book Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch. From that book, I  began to believe that there was a God and He was everywhere, in everything and in everybody, and that opportunities presented to me were of God’s giving.

Then, as time went on and I began to face old issues, I felt I had to watch my back, that God was to be trusted only so far, and then I had to take over to remain “safe.” I found, however, that trusting myself alone was lacking, didn’t work well. Trust in myself alone led to more struggle in my healing, and I accepted the struggle instead of accepting a higher power in my life.

To get back to trusting in God, I found I had to heal from my issues, despite the greater struggle.  I had to feel the hurt, the pain, the disappointment of not having had happy formative years. I had to grieve those things. That process took a couple of years. At the end of that time, I was able to, once again, let God into my life and allow Him to guide me. I began to again trust that He knew best for me and I learned to turn over my issues to HIm, trusting that I would be shown the best way to operate, the best way to be.

I learned it doesn’t have to be God in which I trust… it can be the Universe, or the Great Spirit, or any power greater than myself. This belief has allowed me to move forward in my growth, to once again, see that opportunities were being presented to me to aid in my healing, in my life. With this belief, recovery has led to inner peace and joy.

In what do you trust to guide your life?

Tags: Carolyn CJ Jones, Conversations With God, Neale Donald Walsch, Opening the Gates of the Heart, Sober Living, sobriety

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